many loves♥

i'm sorry, i am rlly sorry.
it's all my fault,
why are things all happening now
all the bad things.

so much to handle
so much so much..

thanks for those who came down to accompany me
it's rlly so appreciated..
sorry for making you guys wait for an hour,
it's my fault, sorry..

i don't know how to express but yeah,
i rlly thank you all & many loves ♥
not only ting,sa,ade,jw & joey
but the others too.
thank you so much so much.

today, my 2 cousins came back,
& karin too
all came back from aus.

i wanna smile from the bottom of my heart
okay, gonna pick mok♥ from the airport soon.

well, forgive me..
xoxo.

it's never goodbye

cos you'll live in my heart forever
till the day i leave this world

well, back from the wake :/
It's such a terrible feeling
I've been mugging on my work.
& collecting the money from the people

somehow, i got this feeling
that the wake
is, a 'chatting' & 'catching up'session
for my relatives
:/
but whatever the case,
thank you for coming down.
it's very much appreciated

many came today
it's 'full house'
chanting session..
etc.
thanks everyone who were there.
it's really appreciated..
it's rlly a long while since i've rlly 'poured' out..

i know, i was kinda scary today :/
sorry, to those, who i vented at.( i didn't mean it)
thanks to those, rlly thank you so so much..
those hugs were such an amazing remedy

When i saw you,
suddenly remembered the last smile,
the last handshake,
the last conversation
the last laughter
the last embrace..
Those memories..
i still remember, when i was young
you'll send me to my kindergarden everyday
early in the morning
when i was sick, you came to fetch me home
it was like this everyday,
when you held my hand, afraid that i would run around and get lost
i still remember, you canning me
although it was really painful,i could still vividly remember
i knew, it was rlly for my good
bcos i did something wrong
i know your heart ached when you caned me too
when i refused to go to school,you pulled me there
afraid that i were to miss school, and may not be able to catch up with stuffs
i still remember the teddybear,bobo, you gave me when i was primary 3/4
couldn't really remember.
i treasured it greatly, it's still here,(altho its eyes dropped out)
but i managed to fix it back
now every saturday seems to be so lonely,
i rmb i use to visit you during saturday(2 weeks,once)
i was lazy,i wanted to go out with my friends,
so i was absent during some of this saturdays
but whenever i go there,
you'll always put up a big smile for me,
& when we all left, you still put on a big smile for us.
i miss your smile, i miss your scoldings,
you screaming at me, to ask me to do my homework.
you would always buy dinner for us, bcos i was too lazy to go downstairs,
why am i this way..
you doted me, you doted every of us.
but i was being so disrespectful at times.
you forgive me.
you would always tell me about your 'days' ,your past.
you had a group of loyal and good friends,
you were in the bball team,
championship hur!
well, all this, will not happen alrdy.

i was suppose to visit you this coming saturday,
i guess, there is no need to anymore.
no more trips and lunches in the nursing home
your pain, has came to an end,
it was a peaceful one.
no pain, no nothing, you left us.
perhaps, it was a release for you.
but time heals,
i'll be strong,
i know, i know, i can feel your presence
even though no one believes me,
but i can feel you here with us.
watching us, assuring that everything was going smooth for us.
you'll be watching us,i know you will.


a few years ago, you got into the nursinghome bcos you had stroke
i was so afraid..very..
you didn't leave us at that time.
i was praying so hard,
thank god.
but i know all this is inevitable.

just a few days back before he left us,
i was still talking and telling dear,
'if any of my grandparents were to leave me
what should i do,
i will feel so lost'
& she replied,' don't think so much la'
it indeed is so unpredictable.
life is this way.
accept it,cheryl.

we'll all be strong,


i miss you.
i really do.

hugs&kisses, cheryl♥

you caught me off guard

now i'm running and screaming

hey yo people!

okay, study at joseph's hse today was effing great!
love hes house to the core :D
heee:D
more more more!
came back not long ago..

Ohyeah, took the wrong bus, so we, walked to his house
& it's so deep in
stupid rich man :/

okay! tired already nights!
Anyw, my comp most prolly would be confiscate
should be taking effect
from next week
yay -.-

nvm
shutup and study
HHAHAH

:D
xoxo

cause you're not alone

Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your world's crashing down
And you can't bear to fall
I said, babe, you're not lost..

woohooo, love michael buble!;D
shit asss, let's all get mesmerized :)
well, went movies w/ my dearest dia ystd night
watched, wedding daze.
i'm sorry again, you didn't get to watch your dark knight.
but anyw, wedding daze was a pretty good replacement yeah?

took neoprints yesterday! (gosh,it was a really good feeling)
seems ages since we've took one.
retrospecting...
miss those times :/
gimme a time machine, &i'll be slacking all day

well, today's lesson was rather... alright
i love chemistry
but i hate acids and bases :/
okay, i'm going to see my buddies in dreamland
Goodnight sweetdreams to me.

&oh, so many things has happened this past few days..
chill,everyone.. :/
okay, gonna see darlynn baby later!
i'm in a state of euphoria!

xoxo.

T.T

walau
i feeel so fucked up
and so moody.
i wanna hear ting's voice
i wanna talk to teoyueting T.T
where're youT.T

i realised that i'm so afraid
if after all the hardwork, i don't get the result that'd satisfy me
i will cry like shit

but sometimes, things are this way T.T
i wanna study like shit till i can't study anymore
please, i don't wanna to get so fed up
but whenever i don know how to do questions
i feeel like killing someone
-.-

let me pull through Os
let me burn my books right after the last day
pleaseeee
bless me through
:/

because

Vultures are waiting for what's left of us

oh hiiii!
:/ i realised that i'm so into using this face :/

Anyw, today was practically a laughing session,
i laughed all the way
i laughed my asss off
i laughed my heart out

there were not many lessons :/
due to health check&'wedding ceremonies'
ohwell,went for lunch after school.
It was pouring

I'm so tired:/
as in physically not mentally
i think, i'm a pedophile. :/
eh wait, i'm not an adult yet what
right?
that means, i'm a pedophile to be
HAHAH. okay not funny :/

why didn't you?:(
i find it somehow,rather pointless..
you don't really care,do you?

xoxo

say

waalau, damnit,i feel like fainting.
i can't imagine the days, from now till Os.
mugging everyday.
I will faint, and faint, and still faint.

however, i still did, study today
chem & maths!
however, some sotong's damn noisy
shhhhhh.Lol

welll.. okay back to mugging session
advanced nights!
bye
&oh,someone's bangs, is so ugly, like some shit :D
The person suck bigtime tooo
But still love! :D
-
-
if you didn't notice, you meant everything baby

xoxo

boring sundays

sundays
are
f-ing
boring.

bore me
bore me
bore me
-.-

Sleep the day away?
Yes? No?
urgh

yesterday.

Hi,I've not been blogging, it seems so long.
Well, many things.. this few days are kinda hectic.
My eye rings, are coming out T.T
Obviously, without saying, it's the Os.

Oh, there's this, motivation course
i felt that, i'm kinda motivated,somehow or rather.
Dreams, are meant to be realised.
I somehow have some connection with this sentence
So i'm gonna work to my goals i've set, so this dream of mine could be realised.
In fact, not only one, but many
Please keep me motivated.

Okay, let's see, there's remedials everyday so yeah.
I've not watched a proper episode this week :(
But at least i get to use the comp :) for songs

I reckon, that i've done, many assignments this week
so it's time to enjoy
on friday, went out with Lydia!;D
woohoo, i've been looking forward.
She totally made my day

Okay, but we didn't get to catch the show
it's a boygirl thing/it's a girlboy thing
it's still the same afteralll *yawns*
was kinda pissed, but still happy.

went to shop around,
i swear i was laughing all the way yesterday
went to fish and co for dinner :D
Anyw, it's really happening there
it's 5 people's birthday!
all chose to celebrate at fish&co.( idk either)
music was so damn loud (liveband)
that i had to scream across just to get my message across
okay nvm, but, we rlly had a hard time finishing/
walked to busstop and homed :D
She always make my day, always.

saturday which is today, went for remedials in the morning
then met lydia for lunch :D
at vivo , i've not been there for hell long
had subway :)

Okay, angmohs can rlly eat. :/
we are stuck in between many angmohs
they are all having 12inch bread(!!!)
believe it or not! Even ladies :/


可是现在的你不再像从前
是什么让我们疏远
我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远
感觉不到你还在身边

yay, going to popo's hse later for dinner :)
xoxo.

before i fall in love

I'm at a point of no return.Y

hello.
I feel like blogging before i start studying.
well
Had chinese listening compre today,
If joseph's answers are 100% reliable
Then i'll get full.
But if it's not.. we'll see about it then :)

After school, went dawson with Tuyu because Yeojiawei wanna go home
After we reached, she said she had to rush back for maths --
So yeah, continued with val,nell & Jy :)
Ohwell, there's this cute boy
whom i name.. Ah lian, i heard wrongly actually
it's Ah yan.
Bloody hell i think i've got fetish for .. kids
But his really cute :)
He wanted us to go to the playground to play with him

well, but yeah, went home obviously
okay off to geog mugging sesssion
my god, 'ILOVEGEOG'
i'm intending to pass geog rather than f&n
damn those courseworks
& execution


when i lose myself, i think of you


whatever , bye.
xoxo!

all i'd wish for

be back to edit.

anyw, you weren't know how happy i am on saturday night.

Thanks for everyone who made this possible.

The following: Pen,Ting,163,Pink,Jon,Josie,Hang,Kenneth,Hendra&Ivan

:D A big thank you.

It's one of the most memorable night,i guess.

Love!

xoxo

because of you

whee
yo babes.
Hmm, i'm super tired now. ):
Sorry: valer & lurbexz, mum's @ home so can't go meet u guys!
Nvm, see you later! muazxz

Oh, and you know smth?i bet you don't know, so i'm telling you now.
I slept at 3plus ystd! I don't know how i did it too.
The power of conquering my biggest fear,f&n
Anyw, there's still YJW, she didn't go to her dreamland at all :o

Anyw, i was still quite awake today i guess
though in the morning i was kinda like a walking zombie
Hmm, i wonder what will be up tmrw (surprise!)

Yeah, done, i'm going to take a nap before i meet them :)
Ciaos!

All the best in everything:D
xoxo

Better in time

gotta smile,
-
because i deserve to
-
let's all smile together,
-
it will definitely cheer
-
each of us up :)

we belong together

hello.
Did f&n coursework B planning today.
Walau, i can't find the template
or else, i will copy and paste, and slowly edit. (damnit)

Okay,nothing much.
Joseph Ng the Black wants me to blog about him,hmm.
I wanna say:
-
jonas brothers, rocks.
-
Lemme see what to blog, okay one fact.
I rock more than black.
This isn't self proclaim kayz

bye.

f&n, screws my day

woohoo.
i'm officially hating
f&n :)

Go to hell srsly
sleepless nights again.
Yay, steamboat with clique later
:)

(edited)
well, okay, backkk~ woohoo.
I'm sorry guys, i was late ): rlly sorry, didnt mean it.
F&N did everything, the mastermind of the entire 'late' plot:o
Yeah,met @bugis,then headed to take Neos!
Will upload again! :) it was stuffy, but fun :)
It seems that it has been a long time since i've took a decent neo print.
Eh, wait, neoprints, weren't meant to be decent.

Ooooh, the steamboat's place so near,yet so far
Found it at last :D
We were the loudest group there i swear.
Took pictures, etc.
Okay,milk cures spiciness.
Is chocolate milk included?

Anyw, great day, went home to do my f&n,
till 12plus, poooof! The thing once again hanged itself.
Thanks alot, i swear i was so pissed that i just went to bed :)
Sorry Zh, i was bloody grumpy ystd.


xoxo

hello wello

HELLOBELLOWELLOWLELLO
LILOSTICH!

Lol, okay, let's do some recaping.
On, saturday, as usual,cycling with my dearests. :D
Met Ting at what time, i forgotten
Then, went to east coast, i rmb that it was raining
But when we reached there, the rain stopped!

Rent bikes,waited for Pen&Pink
Then headed to a place we just discovered today
Lol noobish

Went some sorta HIGH tea with my Three other sisters(:
I'm damn happy to be able to spend time with them :D
It makes me smile from the bottom of my heart(sounds cheesy but W.)
Till, this person spoils me mood, W again. Who cares :)

okay, i'm really looking forward to next sat's bbq! :)
I had to leave early on sat): family dinner!
went for teppanyaki with parents,popo&darl!:)
she's so sweet! i can't resist man!
walked arnd then homed to popo's hse.
Saw darren, gosh, so cute >:)
i love saturdays

Sunday which is today,went to study with Ting at the airport
did f&n,but ended up, we exchanged homework.
Lol.Met 163 and erny on the train!
163,ting& me dropped off first
& headed to, bob's place while erny continued her journey home

Pizza-ed,Gym-ed, we chatted there, gossiped there,'confessions'
INCREDIBLETALE-D :D
Homed:)

I LOVE TING,
I LOVE PEN,
I 'LOVE' PINK,
I 'LOVE' 163.
I LOVE ALL MY DEAREST FRIENDS! :)
& LAST BUT NOT LEAST,
-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
-
MYDEAREST BAMBOO TAY:D
i love youY

Kiss the rain

i'm tripping ,i'm falling
all for you

Please tell me it's not true,
that i've never met you
Please tell me it's not true,
because everything's happening
so uncontrollably fast
that we all can't handle
Please tell me it's not true that,
i've already fell
Please tell me it's not true
That you're overtaking my world
& be everything in it
Please tell me everything's not true,
Every single thing that gotta do with you
Isn't true at all

Please tell me,
to wake up from this dream
Bcos, it seems like it's never ending
Please get out of my world,
& just be a passerby

wah, so pro leh,
so poetic

chuan qian ming yue guang
yi shi di shang shuang
ju tou wang ming yue
di tou si gu xiang

poetic right,
what have gotten into me today!
i'm not too sure either,
but i'll soon be myself.
in, 10hours time.

GOODNIGHT everyone.
xoxo.

This is me

My all time, favouritesY :D
welll..
On weds, went kbox!
With,dia,mok,mich,shaun,MingyiReverend
Jeremy & hund.
It was fun! Altho i was kinda tired.
Lotsa jokes. *laughs to myself*
I hope Mok enjoyed herself.
Oh, the lion sleeps tonight hur? xD

& thurs, she left for Australia.
Sorry, i wasn't able to send you off, forgive me ):
I will see you,during december,(start saving!)
Take care, Yya!
& Oh, i loove your present, don't worry
On thurs night, i was busy with the fucked up f&n.
Damn tired, obviously didn't complete

Friday, shortest day of the week=loveliest day.
Well.. nothing much to emphasize,
don't wanna speak much.
Went to see mrs anthony, explained then lunched with jw,
Then homed

Every morning when i get out of bed,
i would be frightened by myself.
'Look at those horriblevegetableunbelievable,
disgusting, dark eye rings
yucks, u disgust me.
I'm gonna make up,
all the hours of sleep i've missed,
because of stacking homeworks & tons of revisions
Well. that's about it, bye.


xoxo

final goodbye.

wellllllllll.
Hi Babeszx.
-
I wanna cut my hair!
-
My Fringe sucks.
-
disturbing leh.

well. yeah.
Today's a very hardworking day.
Did maths after school.
& Now.

I'm leaving for kbox!
Awww, my dear Ymok's leaving tmrw );
shit man! ): so saddddd.
Tuition's on sunday!
Poa test tmrw shitttttttttttt);
Coursework pass up on fri.
Shit shit shit.
I hate the bloody cookie time you know.
Heart's pumping super fast every morning.
Tsk.

Bye!
xoxo

let's make things right!

hiiiii babezxz!:D
firstly.. i wanna say....
-
I Y CAMP ROCK! &
-
I Y JOE JONAS
-
I love their songs!

Orals.. was ..okay i guess..passable.
But, i stuttered.. and stunned.
Lol.
whatever,it's overrrr :D
I was staring at the ceiling almost the whole time
Gosh, Tryna think what to answer HAHAH.

Okay nevermind,what's over, over.
Let's not talk about it!
Anyw, goood luck to the ppl taking tmrw :D

cheeeeeeeeeers! Back to F&N. Sickening

xoxo.