And, I have decided to give this up.

If I know I can't have you afterall, I should give this up right now.

It's gonna be hard.

I know falling for someone again, would be tough.

I'm tired. Searching for that someone special.

Why do the people around me, all end up having broken marriages.....

Sigh.

I hate seeing the people I care, feel sad.

That feeling really suck to the brim.

I hope everyone would be happy again and that no one would have to be sad over such things. They deserve better.

I hope.....

I can't express it, but I know deep down, I'm feeling the pain.

How can you feel the pain of losing someone so dear to you when in the first place, you never had this person at all?

That pain, of not speaking to you
That pain, of not hearing your voice
That pain, of knowing that I care so much more than I should.
That pain that shouldn't exist because it's killing me.

The only reason why im not talking to you is because I know I can't have you so I will distance myself away from you.

Because I understand the fact that you can never really be friends with someone you love a lot.

I wanna speak to someone but I don't wanna be anyone's burden.

I wanna be happy again, because of myself. Why did I even give someone the power to control my emotions.

Afterall, I'm just a girl who wants to be happy again.

你

明明知道這是一個不歸路，但還是走上了。明明知道會受傷，但，還是想不顧一切的愛上。。。

人也許就是那麼犯賤吧。
已經覺得是錯誤的，但還是走不回去。。。。

他，我不知道我到底瞭解多少
但是還是想去追求這一種刺激感。

感情一旦付出了就好難收回來喔。。
我每一次和你說話時，我都很恨我自己。
想要告訴自己不要在主動了
不要在去煩你了，但是手還是不自覺的按了你的名字。
好多時候不知道該說甚麼，所以一直反覆的寫和刪。。。

每一次發誓不再和你說話，但還是辦不到。

我很差經吧？

但就是控制不了。

我的心里有好多 ＂我應該＂和 許多的 ＂但是＂。。。

就讓這一份感情永遠當成一個秘密吧。。。

希望你永遠不會知道。。。
害怕知道了連朋友也當不成。。。

好吧，就這樣決定。
謝謝這個空間，肯傾聽我內心的秘密。

Don't gimme hopes then tell me I'm not the one for you.

越來越愛上了

Only god knows how much and how badly I wanna see you.

Miss you so much, sighs